Decisions

I went to the doctor this past week to have a check up since my blood pressure has been high. It was the first time going back to this office since my doctor quit her practice. I saw the PA, Heather, to the new doctor I am going to and she was wonderful. Very skinny, very young and pretty but she didn't make me feel bad. She offered me many paths to take in my weight loss endeavor. Which by the way after 2 weeks of attempting to diet, I have stayed the same. Anyways, she believes my underlieing problem is depression. I eat when I'm depressed hence the weight gain and the high BP. She offered me Meridian but I declined since I have an appointment with the diet doctor that a friend went to (No, I didn't tell Heather that) so she prescribe an anti-depressant and a diuretic to help lower the BP. She also gave me a referral to see the weight loss surgeon at Sacred Heart. While I'm almost positive I do not want gastric by-pass, I am interested in the new lap band procedure. I have to attend a seminar on the 20th before I can even meet with the doctor. My appointment with the diet doctor is on the 31st so I guess by August I might have a clue as to what I want to do with my health. In the mean time I'll keep trying to make better food choices and watch what I eat and maybe even exercise! (I did swim some today!)

Old Age VS Weight Gain

I think I'm falling apart and I can not decide if it's because I'm getting older or that I've gained so much weight. Last week my blood pressure went dangerously high - high like both numbers were triple digits. I'm pretty sure it's because I've gained weight and my exercise routine is non-exisitent. I've wanted to do yard work but because I'm alergic to almost every grass/weed in our yard (becoming worse as I get older!) and I woke up with a sinus headache I couldn't. My sinus headaches are notoriously known to become so severe that I vomit. So, instead of doing the yard work (which by the way should be Joe's job and since I was mad at him I decided I would do it) I went to the dentist and the allergy doctor to get my shot. While there my injection site swelled more than usual and is now about the size of a baseball (about 4 hours later). Why am I having since reactions - old age or weight gain? Oh and by the way - I still have several yellow fly bites that are visible....hmm, old age?

Not much new

I am back from my very relaxing week spent with Casey and Vickie - I had a great time and enjoyed seeing them both. I'm also back from a camping trip that was pretty good with the exception of about 15 yellow fly bites I got and had an allergic reaction to; they swelled up bigger than half dollars and I had to go get a shot to get them to go down. I've been taking Benedryl up the ying yang and coating myself down with anti-itch stuff. Other than that everything wen't well.

I plan on starting to settle down and get into a weight lose routine. First I need to clear the junk out of the house and start incorporating a little exercise. I am very unhappy with my size and it is starting to effect physical activites for me (like camping, which Marcus really enjoyed) and I thing that my blood pressure is very high. My son also asked me today when I was going to get a little tummy. Well, if that isn't heart wrenching coming from a 4 year old! I guess it's good incentive though!!