Tuesday, August 29, 2006
A Whole Month
A lot has happened in the whole month that has passed since I last blogged. I guess I'm back blogging tonight because I can't sleep. There are so many things running thru my head and I don't know how to stop them. Just where do I start; how do I sort everything out? Let's start with the easiest for me to get off my chest - my weight. I have lost 9lbs since I blogged and been to the gym a minimum of 4 days a week. In that area of my life I am feeling much better; my blood pressure is down, my clothes fit better and I feel I have control of my eating again (with the help of some pills).
My next easiest thing is helping plan a party this weekend for an old coworker, Corey. His wife is trying so hard to make everything perfect and I don't think there will be the turn out she expects but I want it to at least be fun and eventful.
The hardest thing I am having a problem with is my job. I am having such a hard time even walking into the door to the place! I just don't know what to do. It was hard not getting the promotion that a bunch of people told me was coming to me; even harder to have the "friend" who got it be at ends with me. I think the major disappointment is I feel it was politically motivated and the "friend" doesn't see it as that and won't address the issue with me. Tied into not getting the promotion is money problems; I had so looked forward to the raise it involved and maybe seeing the light at the end of my credit card tunnel. I have been an emotional mess for the past 2 weeks and have taken it out on my husband, God love him. I'm very torn between doing my usual work performance and just doing enough to get by. I'm used to giving 110% but finding out that 75% is good enough. I know that if I redid my resume, I could probably find a better paying job with the college degree I have but that would be making a change and we all know how hard that is. For the most part I love my job but this promotion thing has really made me see thinks in a whole different perspective. I just don't know what to do!
Well, maybe I can sleep now. Goodnight.
My next easiest thing is helping plan a party this weekend for an old coworker, Corey. His wife is trying so hard to make everything perfect and I don't think there will be the turn out she expects but I want it to at least be fun and eventful.
The hardest thing I am having a problem with is my job. I am having such a hard time even walking into the door to the place! I just don't know what to do. It was hard not getting the promotion that a bunch of people told me was coming to me; even harder to have the "friend" who got it be at ends with me. I think the major disappointment is I feel it was politically motivated and the "friend" doesn't see it as that and won't address the issue with me. Tied into not getting the promotion is money problems; I had so looked forward to the raise it involved and maybe seeing the light at the end of my credit card tunnel. I have been an emotional mess for the past 2 weeks and have taken it out on my husband, God love him. I'm very torn between doing my usual work performance and just doing enough to get by. I'm used to giving 110% but finding out that 75% is good enough. I know that if I redid my resume, I could probably find a better paying job with the college degree I have but that would be making a change and we all know how hard that is. For the most part I love my job but this promotion thing has really made me see thinks in a whole different perspective. I just don't know what to do!
Well, maybe I can sleep now. Goodnight.
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