OMG!!!!

Hey - how does 22 pounds creep back on you in a matter of 4 months????? Well needless to say the lifestyle change started yesterday. I've quit sugar cold turkey (except the natural kind that comes in fruits) and I've now exercised 2 days in a row, just little 25 minute things but it's a start. I gave away all my clothes and REFUSE to buy more so I do not have a choice. I guess that turned out to be a pretty good motivational tool, huh?

PS - Happy New Year!!!!

Merry Christmas 2007

Merry Christmas to everyone who hasn't given up hope on my blog! I intended to try better after the holiday season. I will resume dieting (or the pc term - maintaining a healthier lifestyle) and we all know how that stresses me so I will be back blogging!

I hope everyone has a safe holiday season and a prosperous New Year!

Love to all,

Jeannine

Holidays

The holiday season is here. And while my 5 yoa is thrilled the recent loss of a cowork has got me in a funk. It isn't that I was particulary great friends with the person but I did consider him a friend, I really don't know how to put it into words; a lot of emotion is at play since the event occurred on my watch at work.

I can update you on other aspects of my life. I have settled with Wal Mart to the tune of $2000+. I'm happy with that outcome but now have a lower back problem and since I have not gone to the doctors, I can not tell if it is the result of the fall or just plain old age. I have slacked greatly on the diet/exercise regime so I hope that when I get back into that maybe the pain in my back will decrease.

My employers still has not paid me on the money that is owed to me; they have collected the $250 they over paid me though!

There is not much more to say. Tax season will be upon my soon and I have already started some review classes. I have 4 holiday "get togethers" to attend in the next 3 weeks along with working a long week and deciding if I want to do my holiday baking.

The decisions in my life........ :-)

Not into It

I'm just not into life in general these days. Dieting is not going well. I STILL have not settled with Wal Mart and I STILL have not gotten my retro pay from my employer. It's hell knowing that you've literally got money that you should be getting but none of it is actually coming in. I'm up in the middle of the day when I should be sleeping since I have to work tonight. The whole Wal Mart thing has gotten me aggravated and I'm contemplating calling them but I don't want to short change myself either. I may as well just go ahead and call them just to get a piece of mind.

Wednesdays

Wednesday, the middle of the week, not much to do, but a whole lot I should do. Yet, I sit here, browsing the net, thinking "Get up, DO something". Hmm...I'll keep on lookin'!

Yeah for Me!

I found the young man that helped me at Wal Mart when I fell. He's an employee there who told me that he had already told housekeeping about the stuff on the floor but they hadn't got to it yet. He's also the same one who told me he own Wal Mart if he were me. I've already called the company who is handling my claim and left a voice mail. I guess the next call I should make is a lawyer; I totally forgot that I have Prepaid Legal - so I'll call them. YEAH!!!!

Diet Update

If you've ever lost a significant amount of weight, you know that the "diet" routine gets old; that's why it has to be a "life style change". WHATEVER!!! I decide to go off my diet for about 3 days this week. It did my a world of good. I still made it to the gym 3 days and made sure I ate decent for at least 2 meals. I ended up losing 1 1/2lbs this week, much better than staying the same last week. My total since the beginning of the year is 47 lbs. I'm really liking getting back into smaller sizes which has been a big motivator in the "off the diet" times.

Yesterday Marcus started school - I didn't cry!! It was kind of like any other day since I decided to just take him to daycare so that he would get into his routine that Joe and he will have to do on the days I do work. The big difference for Marcus is that he gets to pick what he wants to eat for lunch.

Work update - my grievance has been denied - they don't feel the need to pay me the minimum of the pay grade they assigned me to. It has been turned over to the union's attorney. Stay tuned more to come.....

Long 2 Weeks

I think it has been the longest 2 weeks of my life since I last blogged; where do I start? Well lets' go with the weight loss. I decided to try the new, cheaper diet center. I now am supposed to eat 1200 calories but seem to be having a hard time adjusting to it or just plain figuring it out. In two weeks I have lost 4 lbs; since January 8th, 2007 I have lost 45.5 lbs. While this is not awesome, I consider it a personal great achievement since I really didn't start "seriously"trying until May sometime.

On August 4th to my GREAT horror, I fell in WalMart before going to work. I am just appalled to tell everyone that Management let me sit on the ground for probably at least 10 minutes before coming to me - it was there fault, some sort of unknown slick substance on the floor. And then after filling out an incident report with them, they proceeded to let me stand in line another probably 10-15 minutes to pay for my 3 items. I had to go to the emergency walk in clinic the next morning because my knee was quite swollen and until this day I still have not been contacted by their risk management. Can you say "Welcome to J-Mart"?

My second piece of shit Saturn that I bought has left me stranded again and is currently in the shop where it is waiting for a part they need to start it with before they can see if there is anything else wrong with it. It left me stranded this Friday, when they hadn't called us by Saturday afternoon, we went to the dealership where they put me in a Mac-Daddy 2007 Saturn Aura, 5800 miles, loaded to the max including leather seats, moon roof, every function at your finger tips on the steering wheel and a start the car from in your house option - it started acting up on me Monday morning on the way home.

I've had to file a grievance at my job which is just generating a lot of hate a discontent and will most likely go to formal arbitration between me and my union and my employer. We're not talking small change here - $5700+

We are still working on getting our house windows replaced. It is going to cost us $5100 (man wouldn't that retro be nice?) but we are trying to get a grant thru the State of Florida that will pay have off that. The grant will also give us $ to replace our garage door and patio door if we get it. That price is not included in the above contract we signed with the contractor.

My baby starts kindergarten on Monday also adding to my worries. My little, baby boy!!!!!!! My life is just falling apart................. ;-)

How Do you Decide?

I've got to do some research and make a decision. I am very thrilled with my weight loss and the fact that I am of the BP meds, but the money is starting to get to be a factor and I'm sick of eating just meat. I've once again been screwed out of my retro $ at work and it looks like it will be a battle to get it so I need to rethink some finances. We are scheduled to have new windows put in the house since our power bill is running quite high and the air conditioner (which has been serviced and is sufficient for the size of the house) can not keep up with the heat of the day. How do you decide which is more important your family's house or your diet? I am going to research another diet center that is supposedly half the cost of what I'm paying and you eat double the calories (what will I do with 1000 cals a day?!?!?!) I really do not want to gain the weight I've lost and what's been evident the past 2 days is that I need some help (I've eaten pizza and cookies!!!). The old favorite, Weight Watchers, is a very good diet, but doesn't give me the individual attention that I seem to need. Stay tuned!!!

New Week, New Start

Well the diet gods must be looking out for me; I managed to loose 2 lbs. I'm greatly relieved and am ready to start back on my diet and keep the straight and narrow. I have 10 more lbs to loose until I'm at the weight I was 2 years ago. I'd like to be there before we got to Disney which is September 13th. I have confidence that I can do it. I need to better work at looking for something to do when I'm bored instead of eating. That's my other new goal. I start back to work for 3 nights so I'll be back blogging something this weekend.

Things I've learned....

In the past couple of days I've learned a few things. 1) I am my father's daughter. I grew up with my father always after my mother about picking up the clutter in the house. It didn't matter that the house was clean; he didn't want the clutter around. He used to tell her we lived in a pig sty. Imagine my horror yesterday when I told Joe I was sick of living in a pig sty!!! 2) Me, the Queen of "I want chocolate cake with chocolate frosting" was able to totally sabotage my diet by eating oatmeal scotchie cookies that I thought my husband liked. He doesn't - I think I've eaten at least 3 dozen in 5 days! 3) You can't please everyone! I have a friend that I like doing things with who doesn't like doing things with another, that I really like and want to involve. I've been doing circles around myself trying to figure out if there is a happy medium - there isn't. Too bad I can't just eat another cookie and try to make it better!! :-)

Men!

When I first met my husband I continually urged him to find a new job. At his old job he wasn't guarenteed 40 hours, only ever got 2 weeks of vacation and 3 sick days, very rarily got a raise and had very few holidays off. Well about 2 years ago he started looking for another job and about 1 1/2 years ago he began working at one of the local utility companies. He now knows what it is like to earn leave time on a continual basis, enjoy raises on a fairly regular basis and have holidays off. The downside to all of this is that he has become lazy!! It was hard to get him to do things before around the house but now it's just about IMPOSSIBLE. And today he called out sick - intruding on my home alone time!!! MEN!!!

Yesterday we went to the beach to watch the Blue Angels practice. It was the first time I had ever seen them in action and what an awesome site it was; it even gave me goosebumps a few times. I also realized how much I missed getting into the ocean. It had been awhile since a rode the waves. Everybody that went had a great time.

Diet update - I lost 6 lbs last week which brings me to 32lbs in 8 weeks. My mentality has improved but I'm not going to deny that I really want to eat a whole bag of Reese's Peanut Butter cups!!! :-)

Nothing

Nothing much to say; nothing much is new. It's been a bad diet week and it all started last Tueday when I had a gain. The nurse told me it wasn't a true gain since I lost 7 lbs of fat and gained 9 lbs of water. Still in my little brain it is a gain and that has set my whole week off. I'm hoping tomorrow that I will at least loose a little so I can get back on track. It's an AWFUL amount of money to waste and not loose weight.

On the bright side...rumor has it that I might get my $5700 of retro pay that is coming to me along with my increase....won't know until 7/27/07...stay tuned!!!

Wide Awake

Do you ever wonder how it is that your mind can work non-stop even if you are dead tired? Or is it more in your subconscious that you know you have to be somewhere at a certain time and the fear of oversleeping has you awake every hour and a half to check the clock? Well whatever it is, I've been up for an hour and a half after 5 hours of fitful sleep. I have my diet Dr. appointment at 4:15pm. I guess since I over slept for it last week I was afraid I'd do it again. Or could it be that my job really sucks lately? And I still have no idea when my retro pay will come or my new rate be put in effect. (It should have been put in effect 12/9/06) And I have bills, need new windows on my house and on and on and on.

Maybe I'll be so tired tomorrow that none of this will matter. Or did I forget to take the little white pill? :-)

Fried

I am almost as red as the coloring on my blog! Yesterday Marcus and I spent the day with Laura and her boys at their camp site in Navarre. We were on the beach, in the pool, on the beach, in the park and on a jet ski. We had a lot of fun and I made sure that Marcus had his sunscreen on but I guess I neglected to reapply it on my self. Even under my eyes are burnt! I woke up this morning with my eyes just about swollen shut; some Floridians just never learn.

I also had a bad diet day yesterday. I was able to say no to all the "camping" treats but after coming home and arguing with Joe, I couldn't say no to the the Reeses Cup that had been sitting there for about a week. You might ask why would a dieting person have Reeses on her counter, well, the boys in my house are skinny and love them so I buy them for them. Unfortunately (or fortunately) neither one of the boys have a sweet tooth like me so they do not have to eat them as often as I would like to. But today is another day and I need to work on eating in response to my emotions.

Much of Nothing!

Happy 4th of July! I really did much of nothing today. Marcus and I went to Shoe Station (to get new walking shoes) and to Joann's (half price plastic storage) and then sat around until it was time to go to my friend Rhonda's for a cookout and fireworks. I really enjoy sitting around at Rhonda's - her in-laws are always there (and they're great) and all the kids get along well and pretty much stay in the pool.

I have now lost 29.4 pounds. I also started circuit training in addition to my 30 mins of cardio. I was surprisingly not as sore as I thought I would be after the first 2 times. My third time is tomorrow morning.

I'm kind of having a moral dilemma; I was thinking about going into work tonight because I know they are probably getting their asses handed to them. I didn't because I didn't sleep today and just didn't feel like it It's not like I was scheduled to work, I just feel bad because I had thought about it and then just decided no. I know I shouldn't feel guilty because I'm pretty sure no one on the opposite shift would've thought about it if it was my shift working. But damn, I feel like I should go get dressed and just go help for a couple of hours. I know, I'm not right!

Working with the Full Moon

Today is the first day of my work week. It is also my last weekend working weekends for a month. I'm pretty sure that if the full moon isn't tonight than it is probably tomorrow night. Believe EVERYTHING you hear about full moon's doing weird things. For my job it makes every crazy in the county call 911. I mean I can give you specific names of people that we will hear from ALL weekend long. My friend Casey, who blogs also but I can't remember how to make her name link to her blog, went into detail about people calling 911. Well, this weekend it'll be nothing about kids not behaving; it'll be Baby's Daddy's with guns, crazy drunks with knives and any sort of mayhem you can think of. Lucky for me, I take this little white pill called Lexapro, and everything is just great in my world!!!! :-)

Weigh Day

Well today was my weekly weigh in and I lost just over 3 lbs. Bad news is I had a water gain of like 3 lbs so I really should've lost 6 lbs! The big draw back of this diet vs something like weight watchers is you can't really "cheat" on weigh day without throwing your whole system outta wack. I really want something sweet; I'm not hungry, I just think I need it!!! It used to be a Reese on weigh day and I'm really missing peanut butter and chocolate!!!! Sad, sad , sad - to be ruled by chocolate!!! :-)

L-A-Z-Y

I'm Lazy today. There are a million things I should be doing but I'm not. I'm trying right now to build up enough energy to go to JoAnn's, the bank, Wal Mart and Walgreens but I'm not succeeding very well. I haven't felt good for the past couple of days - Aunt Flo has moved in for her monthly visit. And for some unknown reason that the doctor's can not determine, I get a horrific pain along my C-Section scare for the day before and the first day of Aunt Flo. They have determined it's endometriocous, but they do not know why it only hurts then. And since I do not want to treat it with birth control, I have to suffer (or take Darvocet) for those 2 days. Actually the OB/GYN says the best thing would be for me to get pregnant so they could remove it when they did the C-Section. And only the good Lord above knows why I can't get pregnant- it's probably Joe's fault!

I've taken tonight and tomorrow off from work. I might have a date with Joe tonight and Marcus has a little friend coming over Saturday. I see alot of sun and pool in my future!!

Rainy Days

It's another rainy day and I know I shouldn't complain since we really need the rain, but is preventing me from floating in the pool and working on my tan!!! Now I'm going to be stuck doing things like laundry, house work, cleaning Marcus's room when I really want to organize my craft stuff. I'm trying to make a deal with my self - do the yucky stuff today and than it's be me, me, me for the next couple of days. I'm taking Friday and Saturday night off so I've got a little extra time.

Casey - I had my 4 week weigh in yesterday - 21 lbs! I'm feeling great and am trying to change my mind set to not eat when I'm stressed/bored. It's hard but I'm working on it!!

How Time Flies

Here it us almost 9 months since my last blog. Where has the time gone? There has been some change in my life. I now work midnight shift as a supervisor. I'm not working as much as I was; I was working overtime and I did another tax season with JH. Marcus seems to be growing by leaps and bounds. He'll start kindergarten in 2 months. I'm still battling the bulge with a new low calorie diet and Joe is still Joe. I'm going to try and blog more...I'll start this week with my days off. Hope people still have faith in me and see that I've come back!!