How Do you Decide?

I've got to do some research and make a decision. I am very thrilled with my weight loss and the fact that I am of the BP meds, but the money is starting to get to be a factor and I'm sick of eating just meat. I've once again been screwed out of my retro $ at work and it looks like it will be a battle to get it so I need to rethink some finances. We are scheduled to have new windows put in the house since our power bill is running quite high and the air conditioner (which has been serviced and is sufficient for the size of the house) can not keep up with the heat of the day. How do you decide which is more important your family's house or your diet? I am going to research another diet center that is supposedly half the cost of what I'm paying and you eat double the calories (what will I do with 1000 cals a day?!?!?!) I really do not want to gain the weight I've lost and what's been evident the past 2 days is that I need some help (I've eaten pizza and cookies!!!). The old favorite, Weight Watchers, is a very good diet, but doesn't give me the individual attention that I seem to need. Stay tuned!!!

New Week, New Start

Well the diet gods must be looking out for me; I managed to loose 2 lbs. I'm greatly relieved and am ready to start back on my diet and keep the straight and narrow. I have 10 more lbs to loose until I'm at the weight I was 2 years ago. I'd like to be there before we got to Disney which is September 13th. I have confidence that I can do it. I need to better work at looking for something to do when I'm bored instead of eating. That's my other new goal. I start back to work for 3 nights so I'll be back blogging something this weekend.

Things I've learned....

In the past couple of days I've learned a few things. 1) I am my father's daughter. I grew up with my father always after my mother about picking up the clutter in the house. It didn't matter that the house was clean; he didn't want the clutter around. He used to tell her we lived in a pig sty. Imagine my horror yesterday when I told Joe I was sick of living in a pig sty!!! 2) Me, the Queen of "I want chocolate cake with chocolate frosting" was able to totally sabotage my diet by eating oatmeal scotchie cookies that I thought my husband liked. He doesn't - I think I've eaten at least 3 dozen in 5 days! 3) You can't please everyone! I have a friend that I like doing things with who doesn't like doing things with another, that I really like and want to involve. I've been doing circles around myself trying to figure out if there is a happy medium - there isn't. Too bad I can't just eat another cookie and try to make it better!! :-)

Men!

When I first met my husband I continually urged him to find a new job. At his old job he wasn't guarenteed 40 hours, only ever got 2 weeks of vacation and 3 sick days, very rarily got a raise and had very few holidays off. Well about 2 years ago he started looking for another job and about 1 1/2 years ago he began working at one of the local utility companies. He now knows what it is like to earn leave time on a continual basis, enjoy raises on a fairly regular basis and have holidays off. The downside to all of this is that he has become lazy!! It was hard to get him to do things before around the house but now it's just about IMPOSSIBLE. And today he called out sick - intruding on my home alone time!!! MEN!!!

Yesterday we went to the beach to watch the Blue Angels practice. It was the first time I had ever seen them in action and what an awesome site it was; it even gave me goosebumps a few times. I also realized how much I missed getting into the ocean. It had been awhile since a rode the waves. Everybody that went had a great time.

Diet update - I lost 6 lbs last week which brings me to 32lbs in 8 weeks. My mentality has improved but I'm not going to deny that I really want to eat a whole bag of Reese's Peanut Butter cups!!! :-)

Nothing

Nothing much to say; nothing much is new. It's been a bad diet week and it all started last Tueday when I had a gain. The nurse told me it wasn't a true gain since I lost 7 lbs of fat and gained 9 lbs of water. Still in my little brain it is a gain and that has set my whole week off. I'm hoping tomorrow that I will at least loose a little so I can get back on track. It's an AWFUL amount of money to waste and not loose weight.

On the bright side...rumor has it that I might get my $5700 of retro pay that is coming to me along with my increase....won't know until 7/27/07...stay tuned!!!

Wide Awake

Do you ever wonder how it is that your mind can work non-stop even if you are dead tired? Or is it more in your subconscious that you know you have to be somewhere at a certain time and the fear of oversleeping has you awake every hour and a half to check the clock? Well whatever it is, I've been up for an hour and a half after 5 hours of fitful sleep. I have my diet Dr. appointment at 4:15pm. I guess since I over slept for it last week I was afraid I'd do it again. Or could it be that my job really sucks lately? And I still have no idea when my retro pay will come or my new rate be put in effect. (It should have been put in effect 12/9/06) And I have bills, need new windows on my house and on and on and on.

Maybe I'll be so tired tomorrow that none of this will matter. Or did I forget to take the little white pill? :-)

Fried

I am almost as red as the coloring on my blog! Yesterday Marcus and I spent the day with Laura and her boys at their camp site in Navarre. We were on the beach, in the pool, on the beach, in the park and on a jet ski. We had a lot of fun and I made sure that Marcus had his sunscreen on but I guess I neglected to reapply it on my self. Even under my eyes are burnt! I woke up this morning with my eyes just about swollen shut; some Floridians just never learn.

I also had a bad diet day yesterday. I was able to say no to all the "camping" treats but after coming home and arguing with Joe, I couldn't say no to the the Reeses Cup that had been sitting there for about a week. You might ask why would a dieting person have Reeses on her counter, well, the boys in my house are skinny and love them so I buy them for them. Unfortunately (or fortunately) neither one of the boys have a sweet tooth like me so they do not have to eat them as often as I would like to. But today is another day and I need to work on eating in response to my emotions.

Much of Nothing!

Happy 4th of July! I really did much of nothing today. Marcus and I went to Shoe Station (to get new walking shoes) and to Joann's (half price plastic storage) and then sat around until it was time to go to my friend Rhonda's for a cookout and fireworks. I really enjoy sitting around at Rhonda's - her in-laws are always there (and they're great) and all the kids get along well and pretty much stay in the pool.

I have now lost 29.4 pounds. I also started circuit training in addition to my 30 mins of cardio. I was surprisingly not as sore as I thought I would be after the first 2 times. My third time is tomorrow morning.

I'm kind of having a moral dilemma; I was thinking about going into work tonight because I know they are probably getting their asses handed to them. I didn't because I didn't sleep today and just didn't feel like it It's not like I was scheduled to work, I just feel bad because I had thought about it and then just decided no. I know I shouldn't feel guilty because I'm pretty sure no one on the opposite shift would've thought about it if it was my shift working. But damn, I feel like I should go get dressed and just go help for a couple of hours. I know, I'm not right!