Misc.

Nothing really to blog about just some misc. things I'd like to get out. I'm finally going to get some paid OT at the SO so that's good. Maybe it can help us get our pool up and running. I'm missing alot of days that I could be lieing around my pool (It's no fun when it's green!) and working on my tan.

Today I take Kris to get an evaluation so that he may begin some counseling. I'm begining to think that I may need some to. I've decided that tomorrow I am going to sign up for Weight Watchers on line again. My good friend, Casey, told me this week I need to put myself first and while I'm not know to do that, I am going to take this step for myself. I am VERY unhappy with my weight and I need to just put it in my head that I need to start somewhere and tomorrow's it. Why tomorrow? you say, well, I have to work tonight and I told Kris I'd take him for a treat so I'm going to spend today getting my last sweet tooth satisfied. It's not that I'll never eat sweets again, it's just not going to be in the quantity that I have been eating them. Wish me luck!!

It's all over

Tax season has come to an end. I am glad it's done but very apprehensive on the impact it will have on us financially. I plan an picking up a few hours here and there during the summer time but they will be sporadic enough that it'll probably be just enough $ to fill my gas tank.

We went to the lawyers on Monday and found out that we do have grounds to take Kris's parents to court. We have to prove abandoment and neglect which shouldn't be too hard but the lawyer thinks we should wait for about another 4 months until we do that. And his fee for doing it? Are you sitting down??? $1850....where are we supposed to get that from? We can't even come up with the money to fix the compressor on my air conditioner in the car; that's $1000. Money depresses me!!

Speaking of depression, I think I've hit an all time low...I've eaten my self into oblivion and hardly have any clothes that fit. I have to work on changing my mind set and going from there. I am giving thought to looking into bariatric surgery if my insurance will cover it. I plan on going to a couple of websites this am to investigate it. I just don't know how it will affect our desire to have another child. Although the magic pills aren't doing very well so maybe it's just not meant to be.

Bad Blogger

I have been a very bad blogger but I think that I have good reason: I'm working 65+ hours a week. This is the last week of tax season and I took the week off from the SO so I would have some down time. My life is getting to be one drama after another and I don't know if I can handle much more.

I have to say that I am an emotional mess and if I wasn't almost 36 years old I'd go running back to my Mommy! My mother-in-law is a psychotic pain in the ass and if she doesn't keep her meddling out of my marriage I think I will explode with all the thoughts I keep to myself. She wanted us to take Kris and now she wants to tell us how to raise him. She should've kept him I guess than, huh? And no, the sorry parents haven't helped a bit! Danny, Kris's Dad, came into town last week, was here from Saturday evening to Tuesday morning and spent all of 30 mins with him. How is a 6 1/2 year old supposed to react to that? We, the lucky care givers, get to feel the back lash which causes even for hatred for Danny and Barbie.

I'm worried about Joe and I'm worried about me. I don't think our mental health can handle much more stress from this situation. Physically we are both also a mess; I'm gaining weight and Joe is losing it. (Why can't that be is reverse? :-) )

I have great hopes that when my second job is done and Kris starts seeing a therapist that maybe things will change some around here. We are also going to speak to a lawyer next week to see if we can get anything court ordered so that we may get the child support or foster care money or something to gives us some relief.

Keep us in your prayers!