BLAH's

It's Sunday..I've definitely got the BLAHs. I am very down on my self and need to work on it. The big factor is that I have gaine 12lbs since the wedding. I have paid ahead at Weight Watchers and am literally throwing away $100!!! That could be used to pay off a bill or save to fly to Michigan. Mentally I am not in the diet/gym mode and I do not know how to get back into it. It will be even harder with the holidays QUICKLY approaching (Can you believe that Christmas is 6 weeks from today?!?!?!). I wish that I could at least maintain my weight instead of gaining. I had lost 39.5 lbs before the wedding and it's quicklyt coming back!! I just don't know what to do.

I have the week of from work and can't seem to get motivated to do anything in this house. It's a disaster and I don't know where to start. I have some errand to run almost everyday. I am looking forward to Thursday when I'm going to get together with my friends from the other rotation at work and make Christmas cards. I also have to sit at Saturn one day that I'm SURE will add to my "mood". Remember the light problem I mentioned before? Well, gee, there is a recall on those very same lights!! And they didn't think it was important to get me in before, well I called Thurday and my appointment is Tuesday; funny isn't it?